I write in a journal almost every day. It’s a file on my
computer that has the current quarter’s entries, which I then add to another
file for each year’s journal. I rarely look back at things I’ve written in the
past—maybe when a specific anniversary comes up. Mainly the purpose of the
journal is to provide me space to do some theological reflection—to try to express
my gratitude for my blessings, articulate my personal concerns, and make sense
of how God is working in my life.
Like almost every journal, it is intended for an audience of
one. There are no big secrets in my journal, nor do I break any confidences in
it, but still I would be horrified to think that someone else would read it.
Those words are not intended for them. I wouldn’t have written those things in
that way if I had known someone would read it. That’s why those files are
password protected.
In today’s reading from 1 Timothy, I get the sense that we
are reading a private letter—one intended for an audience of one. To me, it’s
funny to think of how a letter Paul wrote to his dear friend Timothy ended up
in the bible, where millions of people have read it and studied it—not only as an
interesting read but as God’s word. Sometimes, when I read other letters of
Paul like Romans or 1 Corinthians, I get the impression that he intended those
writings to be widely circulated, but these lines from 1 Timothy seem to be a
private instruction. They aren’t scandalous or controversial, but I think they
were intended as an insider’s guide for how to run a church, and they give practical
advice on what it takes to be a bishop or deacon.
Paul spent his later years spreading the gospel and growing
the church. He travelled from town to town, exhorting the Christian
communities, advising on issues of doctrine, and settling community disputes.
We know some of what he did through the letters he wrote to those communities—letters
in which he addresses the issues that threatened to split those churches apart.
But we don’t have his journal. And we don’t really have any second-hand
accounts of his visits from the residents of those cities. But we do have 1
Timothy, and I think we see in it some of the on-the-ground ways he did his
job.
If you’re going to choose a bishop, make sure it’s someone
who isn’t going to cause controversy. It should be someone who can keep his
family in order, who is well respected both inside and outside the Christian church.
He should be gentle and temperate. When you look for an overseer, keep those
things in mind. Likewise, when you look for a deacon, choose someone serious as
their work itself is serious. Many of the same qualities of a good bishop make for
a good deacon—not greedy, not a drunkard, married only once, and faithful. If
you want the church to succeed and grow, start by appointing good leaders.
Those words make sense, and I doubt they surprise any of us,
but I wonder what they are supposed to teach us today. Our own bishop has been
divorced and remarried—clearly not an exclusion for episcopal ministry. Today
is the seventh anniversary of my ordination as a deacon, and on occasion I have
sat around a table with other deacons, indulging in too much wine. I’m still
ordained, or, as a friend said in a text message this morning, “And they said
it wouldn’t last.” Sure, if you’re electing a bishop or ordaining a deacon,
Paul’s words to Timothy are good guidelines (if not rules) to go by. But what
do they really mean for us?
Near the end of today’s lesson, Paul writes, “I hope to come
to you soon, but I am writing these instructions to you so that, if I am
delayed, you may know how one ought to behave in the household of God.” That’s
the sentence that caught my eye this morning. What does it mean to be a part of
the “household of God,” and how are its members supposed to behave? Paul knew. He
had seen it. God didn’t sit him down and say, “Paul, make sure all bishops are
temperate and sensible.” Instead, Paul had spent enough time in the church to
figure out what works, and he was sharing that advice with his friend and
colleague—not as gospel truth but as sage advice.
What have we learned since then? Some things have changed,
and others have not. If we want the church to grow, we need to learn from those
who have worked in it for a while, and we need to allow our age-old guidelines
to change with continued experience. Some models for ministry have run their
course. Others are just springing up. The nature of 1 Timothy as a private
letter reminds me that we make a mistake when we elevate a particular way of
doing things to eternal, unchangeable truth. What are some of the things we do
that seem inviolate? Paul teaches us that you need to be sensitive to
experience and do what works. When was the last time we thought that way in the
church—especially in the Episcopal Church?